Published: 2021-11-15 16:49
Last Updated: 2022-12-06 21:56
English singer-songwriter Adele told talk show host Oprah Winfrey that she felt she had “no control over her body” when she “started experiencing panic attacks.”
Although she had lost 45kg (100lbs), she explained that it was not her intention to do so, but working out served as a coping mechanism after her divorce.
She told host Oprah Winfrey on her 'One Night Only' special: “[Working out] was about my anxiety, mainly. I had the most terrifying anxiety attacks after I left my marriage — it made me so confused and made me feel as if I had no control over my body.”
“They'd paralyze me completely and make me so confused because I wouldn't be able to have any control over my body,” she added.
“I noticed how much I trusted my trainer’s presence when I was feeling so lost, but also I didn’t have any anxiety when I was out at the gym. It became my time — me having a plan everyday when I had no plans.”
Adele has constantly received criticism for her weight especially during the beginning of her fame but she insisted that she does not “make music for eyes but for ears.”
She told Oprah: “I [wasn't] shocked or even phased by it — my body has been objectified my entire career. Am I too big or am I too small, am I hot or not or whatever — I never looked up to anyone because of their body.”
“I was body positive then and I’m body positive now.”
“It’s not my job to validate how people feel about their bodies. I feel bad that it’s made anyone feel horrible about themselves, but that’s not my job.”
Adele admitted she found adjusting to life after divorce “exhausting.”
“It’s a process. The process of a divorce. The process of being a single parent.”
"The process of not seeing your child every single day—wasn’t really a plan I had when I became a mum. The process of arriving for yourself every single day and showing up for yourself every single day and still running a home, still running a business so many people know what I’m talking about,” Adele continued.
“I feel like that as well. I juggled those things as well. And I felt like not doing it anymore and also trying to like move forward, but like with intention. Not just to get out of it for no reason. It made my feet hurt walking through all that concrete.”